He bought soap.

I can't believe this is happening.
As I pace through my house, I walk into my parents bedroom.
When I leave, I don't know what makes me look...
But I turn to my right and there it is.

How can this be?
He's gone, why would this be here?
I am so angry.
How could he do this to us?

There is no way this could have been planned.
I mean, for crying out loud!
Why would he do this before he ended it?
The discovery tears my heart to pieces.


He bought soap.


The news is still fresh on my brain.
This is too much to process.
No, I don't have time for this...
I MUST KEEP MOVING.

But... How can I just ignore this?
I mean, this is all the proof I need.
His intentions were different than his actions.
But actions speak louder than words.

He didn't just give up.
He gave up on me.
He gave up on everyone.
He gave up on God.


But, he bought soap.


So now what do I do?
I know I'll sound crazy.
This is why I keep my mouth shut.
This is why I'll move on.

Yet, I just can't get past it.
How could he change his mind?
This is nothing to make an impulsive decision about...
Though I know he was sick, it still eats at me.

You were a coward.
You were irrational.
You gave up without a fight.
You did the most selfish thing anyone could do.


You bought soap.


But then you killed yourself.


The question will never leave my mind...


Why did you buy the soap?





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